Lucid Dreaming

Dreaming. I am obsessed with it. I am also obsessed with lucid dreaming. Every once in a while I will have a lucid dream, but I really would like to have them on command. So I was doing some research, stumbled upon this guys youtube videos and have been hooked. He talked about this thing called finger induced lucid dreaming. Basically you have to imagine yourself in front of a piano and with two fingers pretend you are pressing the keys. Not hard, you don't really want to concentrate on actually playing the piano, it is just small, nearly still, finger movements. Do this for a while then check to see if you are sleeping. Reality check is what they call it. Well last night I tried this method. It was by far the weirdest and perhaps creepiest experience ever. I closed my eyes, moved my fingers for a bit then opened my eyes and did a reality check. Yeah, I was really awake. So I closed my eyes and tried again.

After a while I opened my eyes to my dark bedroom and thought, 'Nope, still awake'. I did my reality check and realized I was indeed dreaming. Normally when I transcend from awake to asleep I am transported into a dream elsewhere. Waking in my dream bedroom was weird. I stood. Looked around. Saw Aria sleeping and David too. So I willed Aria to be out of the bed and elsewhere and… well I am not going into detail of what happened because that is beyond private. After I started to wake so I grounded myself to the dream. Things became fuzzy so I climbed out the window and took off in flight before I really woke up. The execration of flying woke me and I tried to open my eyes… but I couldn't. I tried to roll over. I couldn't. I was on my stomach and I felt something pressing me into the mattress. This has happened before. Sometimes I wake up paralyzed. I am unable to move or talk. I just have to lay there and wait until it is over. I was finally able to open my eyes and wiggle my toes. Everything was blurry and I started to feel that panic of not being able to see. I felt like the room was spinning. I was extremely dizzy. Thing is… David and Aria were not there. I was in another dream. A dream within a dream. Once I realized that I woke myself up.

Freaky, right? I enjoy dreaming, and I love having control over them. I mean who doesn't want to swim without needing to breathe, or run for miles without the pain, or even the much loved flying dreams. I am not a fan of sleep paralysis though. Freaks the crap out of me. Also sometimes lucid dreaming can create false memories, which I have a few of. The mind is a tricky thing, we haven't even begun to understand its capabilities.